This past week our senior pastor of less than a year stepped down from his position of leadership in the church. I have been friends with Pastor David for going on eight years now and I was both proud and happy for him when he told me of his decision. David has been in ministry for as long as I have known him—he was the associate pastor for years before accepting the senior position last March—but before that he was a business owner. I never knew this until a few weeks ago, but secretly he has wanted to continue his business for all these years but felt as though he “had” to be in vocational ministry if he was really going to be fully committed to following Jesus Christ despite the fact he was not enjoying it.
That’s a common problem amongst some Christians, the misconception that following Jesus Christ means denying yourself of joy in order to prove your commitment. Another pastor friend of mine referred to this as being a “Navy Seal” Christian, the idea being that if you weren’t miserable and muddy you were doing it wrong. I have to confess, I’ve felt this way myself before. It’s the main reason I have hid my gaming life from so many of my Christian friends. See, David’s response was to give up the thing he loved thinking it made him a better Christian. My response was to hide it under the assumption it was wrong to enjoy MMOs but lacking the will to give them up completely.
There is nothing inherently wrong about owning a business or enjoying video games. Both can be abused and lead to greed, selfish ambition, and destructive addictions or they can be pursued for the glory of God and to the benefit of others and his kingdom. They are of themselves neutral human practices that are either good or evil depending on the intentions of the man or woman engaged in them. I hid my gaming because part of me knew I was overly obsessed and spending too much time playing MMOs so I kept it to myself so that no one could hold me accountable. My fear was that God would ask me to give up playing and since I didn’t want to, I didn’t ask.
“There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected by love” 1 John 4:18.
I was afraid of God, afraid that he might take away something that was important to me because I did not really understand how much he loved me. That isn’t to say that God’s love would allow me to continue with a behavior that was destructive to me or my family, but that I can trust him with every detail of my life. I’ve learned to be honest in prayer, to say “Lord, I really enjoy this hobby. I want to continue with it, so please either make it a holy endeavor or take away my desire. Whatever the case, not my will but yours be done.”
That’s been a liberating prayer. Sure, it means that eventually I may walk away from gaming, but not because I’m trying to discipline myself into being a Navy Seal Christian, but rather because I am trusting God with something that I hold dear. If I’m treating it as precious to the point of idolatry I know that he can address it in a way that leads to even greater joy. That’s the security I have in the love of God, the kind of love that casts out fear. It’s why my friend David was finally liberated from the belief that he had to be a pastor to be acceptable to God and is now able to pursue his business which will no doubt lead to even more fruitful ministry as it did before he started working for the church.
“Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart” Psalm 37:4.
Following Christ does not require that you give up the possibility of experiencing joy in this life. Rather it frees us to enjoy God more fully by allowing him to lead us into those relationships, hobbies, and vocations that will both glorify him and make our joy full. I will miss hearing my friend preach every Sunday but I am thankful that he is finally free to enjoy the life God has prepared specifically for him. I want to experience that same freedom in Christ myself.
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I am so thankful I found this. I am an avid gamer and have been since I can remember. I gave my life to Jesus almost 3 years ago and my life got rocked. I went through a discipleship school at my church, traveled to India to spread the love of Jesus and now I want to plant a church through my current church somewhere. I have felt this feeling that you felt of not wanting to give up something I enjoy so much, but giving it to God to make that choice for me and not making it on my own in fear he will want to take it away.
Thank you for your blog and God bless.
I again have mixed feelings here. I mean, I very much agree on much you write, and am very amused on the term “Navy Seal” Christian. There is a lot of truth in your analysis of that, and I feel that this is true for several other religions, too.
Where I fully disagree is this part: “Lord, I really enjoy this hobby. I want to continue with it, so please either make it a holy endeavor or take away my desire. Whatever the case, not my will but yours be done.”
I think you are going too far here. You try to coax God into a binary choice: make your gaming into some “greater good” or making you stop. When checking for myself, very little, if anything I do is a holy endeavor. At the same time I see very little bad or evil in my activities.
In the short run, either of our two ways works, but I can only wonder for your basis in 20 years. Imagine looking back and realizing that while gaming did nothing bad, it felt good for you, you had fun, you still were able to do all your duties, but gaming was merely a recreation, one of many options, without doing anything special.
I think you risk setting yourself up for disappointment and think you are better off with what you described before that sentence: Accept the love of God, but also accept your own responsibility. So as long as your gaming doesn’t do any evil (which it hardly does, unless you use it as a drug and forget responsibilities) there should be no problem, without requiring it to be the holy endeavor you’d like it to be.
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